Uh-oh! Is My Wedding Not Pushing Through?!? HELP!!!

In spite and despite of my anger at Benj right now, I could not say that I'm not scared for what could happen. For chrissakes, he ran away! Oh no!!!


Amidst all the stress of doing preparations for the wedding, he and I decided to spend some time together, get out of the castle and just relax at a sauna... for very interesting reasons, mind you! Out of nowhere, while Benj drove my car towards the place where the spa is at, Alistair, yes, Alistair, texts me! How did he ever find my number out? I swear it was only the Cullens, my Forks friends and the Volturi that knows my number! ACK! And he was just apologizing for having caused trouble for me and Benj back at Isle Esme. Oh my... Just remembering that... I couldn't quite fathom how we get around to arguing like this half a month into our wedding day. Crazy!


So just imagine Benj's fury when he knew Alistair was texting me. I told Benj that I never gave out my number, which is, by the way, the truth, but he wouldn't budge! How and why would I ever lie to him about this? Besides, it's not as if I was the type to give my fone number out, and Alistair didn't ask for it either... As if he'd have a reason to get my number anyway. Oh my.






Back at the sauna, things got hot and heavy between me and Benj, both of us stark naked, getting ready to attempt a shot at our little experiment when all of a sudden, he pulled away and went out of the stall to get dressed! We both left the place a few minutes in, and while he drove us back to the castle, my fone went off again and it was Alistair. Benj must have known this because he pulled over at the side of the road and stormed off. He ran away and I tried to follow him but from far away, he turned around to create this huge hole at the deserted field to hinder me from getting across. Seriously!


Very upset and mad, I stalked away, driving myself back towards the castle and ran off to my room to sulk. And now, here I am typing inside my room. Wondering...


Thinking...


Will Benj ever return? If yes, then when? Would he realize things in time for the wedding, or...





...oh my God...





Help.

Ring o' Surprises

From my last shopping day out, I bought Benj a jacket from Calvin Klein (they have divine choices for clothing!) and what he didn't know was that that was just one of the things I've bough because in truth, I bought him another one..

This is the pretty crystal box:




And this is what's inside:



I wasn't too sure what he'd think of the ring, it was, by the way, a male engagement ring for Benj. He always lavishes me with the most expensive gifts and I could only repay him enough, plus the unconditional care and love, mind you. My Prince Charming have never done things half-way. He always gives everything in anything that he does. I couldn't seriously stress this enough but I am very, VERY lucky to have found love with Benj!


Wedding gown talk!


I never imagined searching for a dress could be such a tedious work! We always have this idea of the gown we have in mind, but rare do we find one that perfectly draws it out OR we find one that is actually better. Decisions, decisions!


I've always wanted for the top fashion designers to create my perfect wedding gown but looking around I think I might just have changed my mind to opting for up and coming designers who give a run for the top one's money. There are a lot of promising designers these days and I've found one with whom I've already am choosing a few gowns from! I still have to narrow it down!


I think I've had the bridesmaids gowns already, so I have time to focus on the other details now.


Oh! And Benj agreed to have it in a month, so I guess we have to compress everything in 30 days, more or less?


Venue talk. I had some time to talk this over with Benj, my plan to have it where there is sun and all but the problem being having human guests at the ceremony. We figured then that we can have the rites in the evening, but all of this I still have to run through Mistress Sulpicia and Master Aro! I can't just decide rashly regarding this since it might pose a threat in revealing our existence..


So venue is still in question.


For wedding favors, I will ask Benj to do something for this. A special, symbolic keepsakes for our beloved guests and no one could do this better than my very handsome soon-to-be-hubby! I don't think no one would expect this. Hopefully!


We'll try to work something that for the reception where it would reflect both myself and Benj. I got him to approve some centerpiece designs and if everything else fits in, other brides would be envious of this, but my man will be working with me for the reception! Again, something only Benj could do best with!


Hmm, the invitations are still in the process of being made. I need the final list of the people attending and their role for the ceremony to have this done! So far, I've created sneak-peak of the actual invitation and of the event. Notice that the date is not yet clearly specified. We will indicate the exact date when we do finalize everything!


What do you guys think? More updates soon!


---jess<3xoxo

All In a Rush!

Mistress Sulpicia and I had to run over our schedules and thought best to have Benj and mine's wedding in a month.. A MONTH! Imagine my panic right at this moment!

All I want is for this wedding to be special and something truly memorable.. Just as Benj would want it.. Just as he said he wanted whatever and however I want it to turn out, thus, myself doing much of the decision-making as of this moment, or at least, the most of gathering our options.

I have to run-through a list of things I have yet to cover and I'm still not half-way done! Number one problem right now is the venue! Where can we hold it that everyone would agree on? Somewhere it is safe ground for almost all?

To take a jab of the joke on myself, I was thinking about holding it in Switzerland. Why, you ask? Oh come on! Team Switzerland! All I want is to have my families together in one venue, no arguments, no rifts. I want my wedding day to be a day of love and enjoyment of each other's company. So maybe "enjoying each other's company" between my Cullen family and Volturi family is pushing it a bit too far, but at least they could try to be civil for my special day? Is this possible? I could only imagine how weddings do not go well when two of my families are joint in on occasion. Oh please! Not on my special day!

VENUE! Could I not stress this enough? Knowing that I will have human guests for sure, I could not really plan to have it where there is sun hovering us for the day. The sun which I want to have on my wedding! How could this be possible? I am starting this new life with Benj, I am not human anymore. I want to be who I really am on that day. Is this too much to ask?

I could only imagine myself staring at Benj throughout the whole ceremony, where the sunlight should reflect from his skin like a million diamonds, glinting and sparkling, almost blinding. I want to see him, myself, my family as who we really are. Again, is this too much to ask?

I have to run this through with Benj. I couldn't decide on this alone.

Baby, I really want to spend our special day where there is sun. Is there any way we could make this happen?

Vrooooooom!

Still included here for my wedding preparations since I have to go around a lot, Benjamin agreed to coming with me in looking for a suiting car for myself. I swear guys have good tastes in cars and Benj knows his game. I dragged him along, er, I meant, Benj drove us to the Mercedes Benz showroom and we decided which one to buy. I've done some testdrive, a few laps, and went back to Benj only to find out that he already bought it for me! Ack! Oh my lordy! I soooooooooo love my baby! Seriously, how did I get so lucky? I could have been one good person in my past life.





More than anything, it wasn't the material things that he's given me that matters most, but the thoughts that Benj put in those things. If I couldn't feel any more loved than this...





I couldn't have found a better life partner for me.. He's truly a heavensent.








Here is the car that Benj bought for me, a white Mercedes SL 65 AMG to match with his silver Mercedes SLR:

VROOOOM baby! *giggles*

Color Motif Talk

Coming from my escapades into shops in Italy, I've seen a few color motifs that I'd like to use but couldn't settle for one, I was wishing I could come up with a combination of really bright colors of purple (almost plum), orange, fuchsia, yellow, and navy blue. Maybe I'll stick with that. I'll update as the days go on. Here are some of the things I've found :

So far, Benj has agreed with me on purple. Let's pretty it up further.

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First Shopping Day

While Benjamin was away, I went looking around Italy for possible prospective ideas for our wedding. I had a blast going from store-to-store, skimming through magazines and books, testing samples, and everything! Who would have thought that planning a wedding could be so much fun?



Well the most fun part, coming from the fact that I am going to tie the knot with Benjamin. As he fills every thought in my mind, Benj also fills me with happiness and contentment. How could a girl get so lucky?




Date: 08 February 2010

The Engagement.

I was quite positive that if only I have a beating heart, it would skip a few. Seeing my love, Benjamin kneeling on his knee, taking my hand in his as he proposes marriage, made me almost capable of feeling a thumping within the confines of my chest.



From a single flower, and another... He kept picking them from the garden at the Volturi castle in Volterra until finally on the last one, something glimmering shone from within it. My engagement ring.

(The engagement ring from Benj)

Since then, from the moment I met him, my world stopped, and all that my eyes saw was Benjamin.



It was the 25th of January, year 2010.